Build, Anyway

I am one of those who question a million things upon getting to know a new person.

Can I trust this person? How much can I trust them? What if they betray me? — among other questions that pop in my head for days, if not weeks, before things settle.

And I still ask that question despite having experienced carefully built years-long relationships fall apart and accidentally built relationships last longer than I thought it would.

The thing with relationships is, I think only time could tell if a person is worth investing our trust into.

Sometimes relationships fall apart at the beginning. Sometimes they fall apart after years of careful weaving. Sometimes the ones that fell apart get rebuilt, and sometimes they fade forever.

But when they turn into fruitful relationships, it’s just so fulfilling. Most of the time I don’t even realize the moment when a relationship I have in my life has become into a beautiful part of my life, until I stopped and noticed how far we’ve gone together, how many bad days we’ve pulled through and how many good days we’ve celebrated.

When a relationship falls, when trust is betrayed, it’s always an uncomfortable feeling. But I don’t think to stop trusting and building a relationship is how I want to do it. Being careful is always a good practice.

All in all, I would build, anyway. Because the relationships in my life that had proved to be worthwhile are just way more than the ones that turned into life lessons.